*HUGS*

I wish I had more profound words. You write with such openness and honesty. I think that can only help you in the long run.

Take it easy...

I wish I had some answers for you. I am here if you would like to vent or bitch or someone to come do laundry. I love me some laundry.

I know, it's sick.

I'm a fan of therapy and drugs. Lots of drugs.

Then again, laundry is good too.

XOXOXOXOXO

P.S. SFG, get your ass over to my house and do some laundry. I have two giant boxes of dirty clothes that I'm moving. Yes, I'm MOVING DIRTY CLOTHES. I'm a TERRIBLE HOUSEKEEPER.

Thank God I'm cute. ;D

You have good reason to feel overwhelmed. I do find that when I am feeling depressed I end up adding to it by beating myself up for being depressed in the first place.
It will pass, you know that, and hanging on to that bit of faith will help you move one foot in front of the other.
For me, if I sit and think of all the things I have to do or am worried about, I become paralyzed. Under the covers is the only place to be. But if I can push it all out for just a moment...just long enough to give myself even one task to do (laundry, go for a walk, clean one room), the "acting as if" helps me. Once I get started on that one thing, other things begin to feel more manageable.
You do have so much going on right now, though, Tori, and are grieving. So please be kind to yourself.

Your husband deserves you very much. You are a wonderful wife, friend, writer and woman.

There must be something in the water...even though we don't even live in the same state and therefore don't drink the same water.

I keep meaning to call my doctor to talk about this, but I don't. Just add one more thing to the list of things I don't accomplish.

Hang in there. I'll be on the branch beside you.

Poor thing. I'm sorry. I know how you feel about some of those issues. Let me know if you ever need to talk or, if you can, go find a professional to talk to.

drugs. and lots of them.

You'll get through it darling, and Dr Torrie will manage to clean his own underwear, I'm sure. Try not to beat yourself up, you deserve some time doing nothing after all you have been through lately.

Look after yourself.

Hi Torrie,

Ok I haven't known you that long, but I do know that you are funny, intellegent, creative and caring. I love your blog, your observations on your life and your photos. In fact, I have even gone out and bought myself a new camera to indulge in a new hobby, BECAUSE of your photos. Seriously. And taking them has helped ME find an outlet for my worries. So how's that, eh? You have helped me!

I also have been struggling with my depression since my miscarriages, so I think I know where you are at with the first question. The one thing I won't say (because it bugs the hell out of me when people say it to me) is "Of course you will have a baby". That makes it sound like you are worrying over nothing. This I think is based on their own ignorance of how much a miscarriage hurts emotionally. The fact is, it isn't going to be easy; for most people it's a matter of stopping the pill and getting busy. For others -you and me- it's a longer road. It probably will happen; it might just take some time, maybe years (for me at least, having now had 3 m/c). And if it doesn't, well, there are options... however hard it is. I'm truly sorry for you to be going through all this, because I know how much it sucks.

One thing that has helped me get through my depression is knowing that life *will* always get better. Sometimes you can't see it when you're down, but you know, when you get better, life is pretty ok. In fact when I was at University I wrote myself a note when I wasn't down to help me when I was. I stuck it over my desk. It said "It will get better... it always does".

My counsellor said to do at least one thing every day that you are good at and can achieve. It can be as menial as doing the washing up well. The shittier the day, the easier the task. It helps me.

Love from across the world.

Oh honey, wish I had a magic cure for you.... something beyond Phish Food & margaritas & blogging away the bad stuff.

Overwhelmed or not.... I sure am glad you are back.... no more compulsively clicking your site just to see the "roadtrip" message.....

Take care of you, Torrie. You're such a strong woman, and I'm sure that makes you feel so much more vulnerable at weak moments.

If you find the magic cure for productivity, pass me a toke!

none of us are perfect - we're all entitled to some down time and some 'a bit lost' time - you'll figure it out. I'm sure of it.