I'm going to blame it on August 17th because I'm the same way.

Its just because we were born on David Koresh's birthday.

That's my story and I'm sticking to it.

Something you can work on and learn.

I wish I had an answer for you. I feel the same way. I see other people and think- HOW DO THEY DO IT??

Hugs to you.

I don't know how they do it either. But I want to bet, they can't make cakes and cookies like you do. Awesome job.

Can I have some Cookie Monster cookies please? That's so clever!

When you're depressed, you feel overwhelmed. I think that you're taking a HUGE POSITIVE step with therapy. I think that you just have to take things one step at a time. Don't try to do EVERYTHING all at once. Take something small and finish it. Then something else, and so on. Looking at everything on a grand scale is too much for anyone.

You know I can say this to you because I suffer from EXACTLY THE SAME THING. Yet another reason we're friends, I guess...

LOVE YOU XOXOXOXOXO

I'm the same way too. I like to believe that these people aren't taking time to enjoy life - they're too busy. Even though with some people I know that isn't true, I still choose to believe it.

I'm the same way, sometimes at work, when my to-do list is sooooo long I just stop woriking (that's awful, but sadly true) - I wanted to let you know that you have some great talents that I get jealous of (you know when I lurk on your blog). I love your photographs, your baking skills, and the way you write. I just wanted to let you know it depends all on your perspective...I wish I could get married again - just to get one of your cakes! :0)

I think to an extent it is something that you are naturally born with. But then again, I think that you can learn this behavior, too. Or unlearn it, for that matter. As a kid, I was constantly on the move, very focused and always doing something. Now as an adult, while I am a perfectionist and like things done right, I never seem to be able to find time to do things that I really love. Sometimes I think I have become lazy because at work I work so damn hard. And then I don't have time or the will to do extra stuff. Who knows? But if we all set our minds to it, and just chill a little, we can be the Everything-Woman.

I'm gonna go take a nap now. :-)

One thing I see you failing to mention is that you have some health problems that wont just go away. Do any of these people have the same issues?

Lady, you and me are on the same page. We both have limitations imposed on us by our health and only so many things we can do about it. And it forces us to accept physical limitations that our minds dont want to accept.

You have no idea how many times I have broken down in tears simply because I couldnt turn a door knob or hold a glass with my bad hand and the end result was something being dropped or broken.

I still try to push myself too much sometimes, and I always will. I know your the same way, which means we will both always bang our heads against the wall before we finally say, OK FINE! I cant do all of this right now and I have to scale it back some.

Or maybe all those people you mentioned just dont know how to relax and we are far luckier then they are.....

I think you can learn it, but the more important question is why would you want to? I know people like the ones you described, and it always seems to me like they're forever searching and doing.

It took me a long, long time to be happy with the way I do things. If I get laundry done *and* clean the bathrooms in one day, I'm thrilled! Imagine my elatement when I started and finished painting Sophie's room in three days! Three days! Hallelujah!

All that time spent *doing* things only takes away from time I could be watching my kids swim, or reading books, or just hanging out with my family. I'll take my unfilled life any day over one filled-to-bursting.

I think at times we all envy someone else for the things they can do we cant, or the things that they have that we dont. Its normal human behaviour.
That being said, each of us has our own strength's and weakness's, you have to unfocus on your weakness's and focus on your strengths. Your photography, cakes, cookies and wonderful Husband.Once you stop stressing over the weakness's you will find that they become a new strength, or disappear.
Enjoy what you have, Love what you got, Be happy with who you are.
For it seems a lot of us think your pretty damn fantabulous (Aussie Word there).

XXX

I wrote "elatement"? What the *hell* is wrong with me??

{{{sister}}}}

i feel ya.
could write a longwinded reason why, but... i don't have the energy.
;)

cheers queers
diana

I think that is something that you can adapt to your life. However, you have issues with depression and that is sure to sap into your energy level. That makes a major difference in what one feels can be done. Just do what you can and what feels right for you. Comparing yourself to others is a sure fire way to make yourself feel "less than." At least that's my experience.

I do the same thing you do. I look at everyone else's life and wish I had it. I think it's easy to look at others and say, "I want their life." But it's hard to focus on oneself.

You might not believe it when I say this but I was looking at your photos of your recent travels to Canada and I was extremely envious. We want in others what we don't/can't have.

The hard part is looking at what you want and figuring out how to get it and if it's even possible.

I also don't work a normal 9-5 m-f job and I often get jealous of friends getting together on Saturday's to have long leisurely breakfasts while I have to go to work. But, there's usually a positive in every situation. I work 4 days a week second shift. I get to sleep in every day and I always have 3 days off! So I realized I had to stop being envious of others. With that said and done I know it's not easy to escape these fears and jealousies. I'm the exact same way you are.
I enjoy reading your blog. And your animals are super cute!

those are hard questions to answer - You've been having a hard time, understandably. More importantly, you shouldn't compare yourself to others. Determine what makes YOU happy ~ and give yourself some slack girl! You're wonderful!

Comparing yourself to another person is always dangerous, just like comparing your job to someone else's job, or your relationship to someone else's. The grass is always greener, so all you can do is focus on your own weekly schedule, and make it what you can manage. (Easier said than done, though!)

Yes, I paint, but very very poorly. :} And while I appreciate your implied compliment, like I said at the fruit stand on the corner, my hypomaniacal activity addiction is as much biological as it is behavioral. I mean, I think I have some sort of chemical defect that keeps firing synapse after synapse. Worse, I have a psychological defect that drives some voice in my head that says, "The more you do, th emore you're worth." Which, of course, is total bullshit. Anyway, we are who we are. And you're great just exactly as you are.