So, I guess I should tell you
I'm feeling better.
Much better (well, mentally anyway).
I am trying hard to enjoy life and take part in things that will give me a sense of pride.
I am going to take a photography course in the Fall (my mother's birthday present to me).
I am looking into getting my real estate license( something I've always been interested in).
I will go back to focusing on my website (I understandably needed a break).
I am spending time with my friends and laughing a lot.
I am getting things done around the house.
I have realized that if I clean for five minutes here or ten minutes there, it doesn't become so overwhelming.
I am trying to take advantage of this great city I live in.
On Friday we went to a party at Benjamin Wagner's place and met some really great people, yesterday we saw the documentary Wordplay(I loved it), on Wednesday (the husband is off) we will go to the Darwin exhibit, and on Saturday our fellow nerd friends will come over for game night.
I vow to spend more time in Central Park. I vow to venture out of my neighborhood more often. I vow to take walks after dinner with the husband.
I vow that when I am sitting on the couch watching crappy TV, I will sort through all of the papers and magazines in my apartment and get rid of the CLUTTER.
The thing I've learned about myself in the past month is that I'm constantly complaining that I don't feel relaxed, but sitting on the couch doing nothing isn't what relaxes me; feeling fulfilled and like I've accomplished something is.
It's really the little things in life that I find joy in.
The perfect cup of tea.
Snuggling with the husband.
Watching the animals play.
Completing a project.
Reading a great book.
Taking a great picture.
Meeting new and interesting people.
Etc. etc.
I'm working on taking time for the little things.
Comments
i hear you, and GOOD FOR YOU! isn't it ridiculous how as grownups we actually have to WORK at this stuff?!? but it's true so often...
yay for you!
Posted by: Sarcomical | June 26, 2006 11:51 AM
you are absolutely right. Go do those things, it sounds like a lot of fun. Culture in the Midwest is nothing like New York! Enjoy!
Posted by: janasayqua | June 26, 2006 12:16 PM
I'm glad you're feeling better. It's funny that something you would think would be work (walking, organizing, etc.) can make your feel so much calmer at the end of the day. Good for you!
Posted by: Cheryl | June 26, 2006 02:09 PM
I am smiling, reading this post. Good to know you are doing a bit better.
It IS the little things, always, and I find I really do have to work at taking the time to notice and appreciate them, and make them a part of my life.
Posted by: Sarah | June 26, 2006 03:40 PM
So glad to hear you are feeling better. You should be very proud of yourself for being so pro-active with your happiness.
Posted by: Von Krankipantzen | June 26, 2006 06:12 PM
yooo kan doo it! ~ so glad to hear you're on the up and up ~
Posted by: Annejelynn | June 26, 2006 07:22 PM
I am super impressed! Thank you for the reminder of what is really important.
Posted by: Duchess | June 26, 2006 07:49 PM
very very proud of you XOXOXO
Posted by: Fuzzball | June 26, 2006 10:19 PM
Inspiring words, Miss Torrie.
I'm about ready for some sort of pick-me-up myself... don't have 'concrete' plans in the making - other than rejoining my gym next week (they have an outdoor pool in the summer!! i am NUTS for not taking advantage of it!!!).
But I know what you mean about just slothing around not being fulfilling, but crossing things off a list, or freeing up physical and mental space by decluttering and simplying IS.
Hey - I just picked up a book called "Pug Hill" - a spot in Central Park near the Met where pugs play! I'm so going there next time I'm in NYC!
Posted by: Diana | June 27, 2006 12:28 AM
That's awesome, girl. I am glad that you are feeling better.
Posted by: southernfriedgirl | June 27, 2006 10:54 AM
Kudos to you, Torrie, for recognizing what makes you happy, and then grabbing it.
Love and hugs, dear.
Posted by: LadyBug | June 27, 2006 12:20 PM
Cheers to you, Torrie.
Posted by: kalki | June 27, 2006 07:09 PM