I felt the same way through my entire pregnancy with SuperBoy, hon. It's not drama, it's...well, it's nervousness, anxiety, hormones, and a desperate, desperate hope that history doesn't repeat itself, because you KNOW you just can't go through that again.

You and your little beanie baby are in my thoughts and prayers, dear.

I have three pregnant friends and they all tell me they cannot wait for their sonograms to know the baby is ok. Especially early in their second trimesters, when the first trimester illness has gone away but they can't really feel the baby moving yet. So I'd say your worries are normal! :)

I thought I told you that I would be doing the worrying FOR you! :D

You know what? You are a mother now. And the #1 job of mothers is to worry. I was lucky enough to get pregnant quickly, but I only had maybe two or three ultrasounds the entire time while a co-worker who was also pregnant got one every visit and i was so jealous! Anyway, you'll be fretting over every sniffle and sneeze the first year too, but you realize that in the end, baby will be okay!
And for the record, I don't think you're being a drama queen AT ALL considering what you've been through. Stay healthy!

Yes, you are not alone in worrying.
You should rent a baby doppler...my best friend Cecily had one (she's the one who lost twin boys) and it helped her and her husband SO much to be able to check in on that heartbeat every morning. Ask your doc about where to get one!

I have never worried more about something in my life. For a while there, we were seeing the heartbeat every 10 days because the fertility doc needed to monitor me carefully, but now going weeks at a time feels like agony. I'm looking forward to getting to feel the baby move. I have been thinking about renting a doppler.

You're definitely not alone!!! I had a missed miscarriage in November '05, but didn't know it until a few weeks later. Heartbreaking!!!!! We got pregnant again in February '06 and had three episodes of subchorionic bleeding and five ultrasounds between week 8 and 12. The bleeding stopped in the 2nd trimester but as it was way too early to feel movement and I had had a missed miscarriage months earlier, I freaked out, not wanting to wait for the 20 week ultrasound. We rented a low-end doppler from BabyFM for $27/month when I was 16 weeks. It saved my sanity! We traveled across the country in the 2nd trimester and if I was feeling a little unsure, I pulled it out, even while parked in the car at the beach. Never had trouble finding the heartbeat. My son was born two weeks ago and the doppler finally went back just last week.

This is our first time trying, (so I don't have the experience of miscarriage to make me nervous) but I haven't had any 'symptoms' that I was pregnant except no period (and now body changes!). So that made me wonder if I really was pregnant. We weren't scheduled to hear the heartbeat until last week (about week 13) I have crohn's and am on some pretty powerful drugs, so I was pretty nervous that everything was okay up to that point. I can completely understand you wanting to hear the heartbeat earlier, and your doc seems to understand the importance as well. Our doc sent us for an ultrasound the next day because we didn't end up hearing anything at our appointment, and I was a smidge concerned but trying to keep positive. Everything turned out okay. So now I'm breathing a lot easier. I'd say any expectant mother, especially one's that have dealt with miscarriages, feel the same way you do. And good for you to have called the doc to help ease your mind! Continued best wishes!

Can you hear the heartbeat with a stethescope?

Maybe you could use one?

I've never been through any of this myself, but I've had it happen to a few people who are very close to me - trust me, you are not alone! But you worry because you care so much, and that is not a bad thing. Your baby is very much wanted and already adored.

I would feel that way even if I didn't have issues like you did. If I DID have that kind of struggle... I'd probably be handling it so much worse! You'll be OK!

Sweetheart you are totally normal in worrying, especially with your history. I don't mean that you should be worried, just that we all understand why. I know loads of women who've been anxious throughout their pregnancies. When I was pregnant with Stumpy (having had one miscarriage) even when I had felt movement I didn't totally relax. There were days when I have to admit I did give her a little prod just to see if she'd move if things felt like they'd been quiet for too long... You'll be fine - but the option of renting a doppler sounds like a great idea for peace of mind.

I have to admit I never, ever, ever make comments but I just wanted to say that I had 3 miscarriages between my two kids and felt somehow disconnected from my daughter until she was in my arms. I was so afraid to get to attached and have something bad happen - so my defense mechanisms went up. Also, I did rent a doppler online and we LOVED it. Whenever I felt nervous or scared I would listen to her heartbeat and know she was ok - I didn't stop listening until she was born - so no you are not alone in your feelings!!!

I think your totally normal. My sis-in-law's Doctor had a small ultrasound machine in his office.

I would say it is totally normal with all that you have been through before.

You will be fine. *big hugs*

Being pregnant, even if it's a "textbook" pregnancy, is always scary, so given what you've endured, I think you're entitled to feel however you want.

All throughout my own pregnancy, I kept telling my husband that I couldn't wait until our son was born so I could finally stop worrying. Once they're born, you still worry; just about different stuff :)

You're going to be great; and I think the doppler idea is a great one for your peace of mind.

We had a beautiful, healthy baby girl, and 15 moths later we had a second child. She died a few days after she was born. My wife went through "Empty Arms Syndrome" BIG time, and badgered our doctor to bend on his "wait six months" recommendation.

But we did wait six months, then it was "OK, dude, get over here, it's baby making time". Several hellish months later, she was pregnant again, and there was not one day in the entire 40 weeks where she didn't worry.

Drama Queen? Yeah, you are - but that's not related to this. THIS is utterly normal, completely understandable, and entirely in character.

Someone once said "Worry is a waste of perfectly good creative energy." Maybe so. But you're a mom, and you're gonna worry. Case closed.

Girl, on what fucking planet are you being a drama queen? After what you have been through, I do believe you are entitled to be nervous. Shit, I'd be horizontal on the bed with my legs in the air making my husband sing to my gut if I were you. Trust me, you are perfectly normal and if your doctor was less than obliging, I'd kick him or her in the nads.

Definitely. You can get little itty bitty sonogram machines over here... I'm sure you'd be able to get them there.

CONGRATULATIONS!!!

xxx

Oh darlin'. You know you're so not alone- I'm exactly as paranoid. I had the same 'you mean I have to wait another (in my case) 7 weeks for more peace of mind?' thoughts. I sneaked in an extra scan at 9 weeks and 15 weeks; my Obstetrician obliges me with a quick scan- he knows how paranoid I am. You are perfectly normal. I'm privledged in having pretty much ultrasound access every day I'm at work, and damn me if I didn't go ahead and use it before I felt movement. Even now I will still poke my belly now and then when things have been quiet for a while.

I know that every day is 'another day, that's great'; hopefully you'll be one of the lucky ones that feels movement early- mine was at 17 weeks (that's not extra wind! Felt like the cat twitching in it's sleep way down in the pelvis).

I think the doppler idea is great. If you can do it cheaply, it's the best reassurance.

SFG put it beautifully. If she needs any help, I'll pull on my Blundstones, fly over there and do some kicking with her!!

oh, and fwiw, I'm *still* checking every time I pee. At 27.5 weeks. Bet I'll still be checking at 4o weeks.

Yes. Everyone's comments are so, just, yes....

You worry because you know. You've been there. I drank about 40 gallons of cranberry juice in the later stages of both my pregnancies just to make them wiggle so I knew they were ok.... how silly is that?

Totally normal, like everyone said, to worry.

I was a mess this pregnancy with worry.

As the song says though, most worrying does as much good as trying to do algebra by chewing bubble gum...

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