Torn
I think I might be done here. At least for a while. I don't know. It's feeling like a chore.
I just don't have the time. Running the household. Taking care of the animals. Taking care of Willa. Packing. Etc., Etc., Etc.
Willa's modeling career has kept me really busy lately too. In the last two weeks she's either had an audition (go-see) or a shoot on Tuesday, Friday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday. She has a photo shoot and a go-see tomorrow.
I am exhausted.
And I spend Willa's naps eating or showering or returning phone calls. It's really annoying how much time eating and showering takes.
At night, after Willa goes to sleep, I make dinner (although lately I've been ordering out WAY too much because I just don't have the energy to cook), eat dinner, return emails, make phone calls, try to have an actual conversation with my husband, and watch TV. I barely have time to read blogs, let alone write one.
I'm sad because blogging is one of the few things I do for myself, and I've met a lot of great people on the internet. But, the truth is, I'm not a writer. When something is on my mind I don't feel the need to write it down. I've never kept a journal. When I write it's forced. I struggle to explain myself properly. I wish we could all just hang out- I'm much wittier in person.
I'm trying to prioritize thing in my life right now. Things that are important to me right now-being a good mother, wife, and friend. Eating healthy. Exercising. Photography. Updating my blog is on the bottom of the list.
I'm really stressed out. I can barely get the daily stuff done. I don't know how I'm going to find time to pack. I'm moving in two months. AND I have stuff going on EVERY SINGLE WEEKEND.
Somethings got to give. I need to spend more time away from the computer. I'm addicted and it's not healthy.
I'll still Twitter and Flickr. And I might come back here eventually.
I'll miss you guys.

Comments
aw. :(
but i do understand the feeling. as long as you STAY IN TOUCH!!! :)
Posted by: Sarcomical | April 9, 2008 10:28 PM
Good luck with everything.
Posted by: Tanya | April 9, 2008 10:43 PM
I'll miss you. I love to hear about your life and all the exciting things that are going on with you. I feel like we have a very similar life. (married to a doctor, having a baby, stressed, etc) I always look forward to reading a new message from you and you are an amazing writer and a great photographer.
Posted by: michele | April 9, 2008 10:54 PM
One more thing~please keep blogging. You are so funny and you help a lot of people by saying how you feel.
Posted by: michele | April 9, 2008 10:56 PM
I'll miss you if you go. But do whatever it takes to be a good woman, wife, mother. Including time for yourself, whether that's a few extra minutes in the shower or taking a deep breath and eating an ice cream cone for dinner.
Posted by: Moshizzle | April 10, 2008 12:27 AM
I'll be keeping you in my reader, just in case you tip-toe back in. It takes a strong person to acknowledge her priorities and then act on that!
Posted by: Assertagirl | April 10, 2008 07:26 AM
You will be missed!
Posted by: lilfootsmommy | April 10, 2008 08:57 AM
Oh. That's a shame -- I've only just discovered your blog and really like it.
Well, if you need a break, you need a break. Come back when you have more time and let us know how you're doing!
Posted by: Ine | April 10, 2008 09:21 AM
oh bummer! But I can definitely understand. The Internet is one gigantic Time Suck. I'll definitely keep following you on Flickr and Twitter :)
Posted by: Jen | April 10, 2008 10:36 AM
Well, take this much needed break, but maybe you will come back some day. I hope. Take care.
Posted by: cloudy | April 10, 2008 01:01 PM
Torri we will miss you if you do go, but you will remain on my google reader, just in case!!
Posted by: Farrell | April 10, 2008 01:18 PM
Hey Torrie, I haven't actually met you in real life before and I just found your blog recently, but I will miss reading about you and Willa and the daily hilarity. I think you are a fabulous writer, but I understand about blogging becoming a chore. Good luck with the big move and hopefully, we'll hear stories again sometime. Oh, and totally nap when Willa does instead of showering! Stinky, but happy is worth it sometimes...haha :)
Posted by: Shayna | April 10, 2008 01:25 PM
Torrie - I just have to say that I'm a closet Torrie reader. I've read all of your trials and tribulations, your happy times and sad times, and down to the horror of shaving your hoo-ha while several months pregnant. Although I don't agree from time to time with some of the things you say, I appreciate your honestly and the way you stand by what you say.
Good luck with everything now and in the future!!
Posted by: Amy | April 10, 2008 02:23 PM
I have been reading for a while...got the link off of "this Fish's" blog and I think you are great. I live on the upper east side too and I see you are stressed and I would love to help if you need me too. My boyfriend and I are obsessed with dogs and have even volunteered at Brooklyn's no kill animal shelter to do walking so if you need any help on that front, I am happy to assist. I am also kind of obsessed with little babies-holding them, talking to them, having them accidentally poop all over me--it's all good. So even though it may be weird, I would love to help in any way with your beautiful daughter Willa...watch her while you pack, etc. I have many references and what not and many ppl who would attest to my love for the mini humans. I would honestly just love to help you out if you want it! Feel free to email if you like!
Posted by: Danielle | April 10, 2008 03:40 PM
I hope you'll keep the blog up at least, because even if you only blog sporadically, I think we'd all like to read what you feel like writing.
For my own selfish reasons, you're one of the few blogs my company hasn't banned with firewalls, so it'll give me something extra to read on my lunch breaks. No pressure, of course ;-)
Posted by: bellacantare | April 10, 2008 06:30 PM
Dear Torrie,
I'm sad that you're leaving: yours was one of the first blogs I started to follow, and I really love it.
But I understand what it is to be time-pressed. It's a pity that the only things we seem to have to give up are the ones we do solely for ourselves.
I'll keep checking on twitter; maybe I'll work out how to reply to it one day!
Good luck with the move, with Miss Willa the star, with Dr Torrie's job, with... everything... and if you're ever 'down under' drop us a line! I'll miss you!!
Love
Jen
Posted by: jen | April 10, 2008 09:56 PM
Dear Torrie,
Just wanted to say I have really enjoyed reading your blog since I found it a few months ago. I wish you and your family every success and I hope there will come a time when you can blog again. You are a very good writer and you have more guts than I to put yourself out there like that (I'm still working up my courage to try it)! Take care and good luck!
Posted by: Desiree | April 10, 2008 10:02 PM
I completely understand and will miss your posts. Thank god for Flickr and Twitter for a daily dose of you. Even if it is only a few words. I'll keep stopping by just in case you have some big news to share.
Hugs.
Posted by: von Krankipantzen | April 11, 2008 01:38 PM
Aw. I know the feeling. Take care of you! And at least we'll always have flickr and twitter. :)
Posted by: Keely | April 11, 2008 05:56 PM
Just put it on hold! I've been following your story since I was just jealous of your beautiful daughter, beeing me the mother of two wonderful sons, since that time I had my own baby girl, blue eyed and everything just perfect. Please, give it time, you are a role model for me!
Posted by: diana | April 13, 2008 03:48 AM
Ya know...leaving her to play by herself after she wakes up isn't such a bad thing:) Getting doses of Twitter is just fine by me.
Posted by: Susan | April 18, 2008 12:14 PM