Cue the tiny violins
I'm not writing, because I don't want to complain.
It's not so much that I'm worried about annoying my readers, as it is I'm worried about annoying myself.
I'm sick of my negative attitude and my lack of gratitude.
I want to be a positive, grateful person.
I should be thankful that my husband even has a job, not complaining about how for the first two weeks of his new job he will leave the house at 5:45am and not come home until after 8:00pm.
I should be thankful for what an amazing husband I have, who does more than his fare share, instead of selfishly worrying about me not getting a break.
I should be thankful for the roof over my head, not constantly worrying about money.
I should be thankful that I'm able to walk and have access to great medical care, not complaining about how much pain I'm in, and how I can barely use my right arm.
I should be thankful that my husband had 5 weeks off, instead of being disappointed in myself for all of the things I didn't get accomplished.
I'm tired of worrying and complaining about everything, but it's a really hard habit to break.
Comments
Oh darlin. Letting go of "should" is a lovely, lovely thing. I'm all for trying to gain a more positive outlook, but at the same time, you can't deny who you are. Give yourself the time and grace necessary to make this change.
Posted by: Tasha | July 28, 2009 11:14 PM
I hear you. Sometimes it really is difficult to be grateful in our hearts for what we have, even though our heads know it. Hang in there - this too shall pass.
Posted by: Shelby | July 29, 2009 01:13 AM
I have that Chicago song in my head now....you're a hard habit to break.
Seriously though, it's so difficult to always look at the sunny side I hope that you have some luck doing just that.
Posted by: Cass | July 29, 2009 07:07 AM
I will play a tiny violin for you! :)
Sometimes it's ok to feel the way you are feeling- it's hard to see the good when you feel craptastic. I have been there-
Can you hear it? :)
Posted by: Carrie | July 29, 2009 12:24 PM
i will play a big violin for you, and would be happy to help ease some home stuff for you as well. please email me about days/times i could head up to visit and entertain you!
Posted by: rachel | August 2, 2009 11:16 AM